Taking the Scenic Route

Although I didn’t hit the goal I was wanting to (to be under 200lbs), I did hit a milestone today at a 50lb loss, but more importantly, I got a phone call from my Dr. My A1C levels came back at a 5.2! (“normal” is 6ish, and higher being pre-diabetes, then higher yet is diabetes.). That means I am doing a lot better at controlling it (I am not on insulin, and don’t have problems with hypoglycemia at this point, which can lower the number in a “bad” way). My blood pressure is good (not fabulous, but good), and although my cholesterol is within normal range, my HDL (the good one) is too low of a percentage, so I need to address that now too. However, it is likely that if I keep exercising and sticking to the new eating habits, it should shift into a more healthy balance. My cholesterol level isn’t severe enough to be medicated, just monitored at this point. (however, at this point I am staying on the metformin, which helps with the PCOS)

So, today I got the gift of empowerment. Feeling like my efforts are finally starting to pay off. It feels damn good.

…for somebody to give you a balloon. Lacy, who works at the front desk at Heartspring, found out it was my birthday tomorrow and surprised me with a balloon, just like the kids get on their birthdays. lol. It was very sweet and makes me smile. Thank you Lacy.

Doesn’t look like much, but add in an MP3 player with affirmations, meditations and a variety of music, and an hour by yourself, and you have a sanctuary from the world.

26 laps tonight.

#91 New Shoes! WooHoo!

#88 My new toy. I am SO loving it. It will also make packing for Germany a lot easier, and I won’t run out of books in 3 days. (and if I do, the Kindle lets me download from Amazon in under a minute)

#15 “A relaxed evening on Facebook”

#13 “So….when does mommy get a break?”

Nothing super dramatic, but I am so annoyed with how today started.  We had such a good day yesterday and I was not expecting this.

Woke up at 9, a bit late.  We are supposed to go to ST at 10.  (I canceled it.  I just can not do it today) In the first place, I couldn’t believe that Zane was still asleep because he almost never sleeps 12 hours.  What I REALLY couldn’t believe is that Zora was still asleep.   Not only did she not wake us all up this morning at the crack of dawn, but she slept through me bugging Zane until he dragged himself out of bed, complaining, and up to the couch upstairs.  I heard her cry for about 30 seconds and expected her to appear up here, but then she stopped.  She fell back asleep on the bottom step.

*TMI warning*  Add to that, it is day 2 of my cycle and I feel like somebody is stabbing me repeatedly.  It is so bad it hurts to breathe and walk.  I also discovered that I am out of Ibuprofin and had to take regular Bayer asprin, which doesn’t really nail it.  I gotta tell ya, I saw some stronger stuff in the cabinet and that is just really tempting right now.  If I didn’t have to stay awake and be a parent, I would have downed that in a New York Minute.  (seriously missing the “old days” where Zach worked from home and I could crawl back in bed on these kinds of days)  The only good thing is that, as horrible as my pain is, at least it is happening on day 2 and not 2 days before my cycle.  Just “normal” really bad, not “Endo” really bad.  I wonder if PCOS has bad cramps associated with it during the cycle.  Dude, I just want to curl in a ball and cry right now.

Oh, and it’s raining.  A cold, dark rain. 

If you remember, our car doesn’t have door seals any more and since it has been raining for two days now that means that all the seats are probably soaked and I would have to take out plastic bags and towels to keep all of us from getting wet when we sit down. I just can’t deal today.

Maybe later I can post yesterday’s pictures.  Besides the normal stuff, it was cool enough that I can have the oven going more so I made some homemade rolls to go with the pot roast and roasted veggies.  The kids were thrilled to help, although Zane was hoping it was cookies and a little dissapointed it was only bread.  lol.

I have PCOS with Insulin Resistence. I start taking Metformin today. (After Zach gets home because I can’t pick it up with the car I have here). I am not sure which is worse, premature menopause or PCOS, but it isn’t like I have a choice in the matter. lol.

It does explain a lot of things though. I know it fits, I just wish it didn’t.

Three weeks ago the only medication I was on was vitamin pills. Now I have allergy meds, allergy inhaler and now this. *sigh* I feel old.

Not for Zane, but for me.  I am going through testing for PCOS and Insulin Resistence.  *sigh*  It would explain a number of things, from my extreme difficulty with losing weight (I swear, everytime I tell people how much I eat, they don’t believe me because I just don’t seem to take in the calories required to be the weight I am at), the depression that always seems to be just under the surface even during my happiest times, to the high number of miscarriages I have had.  It might also be why I seemed to have stopped lactating despite Zora still nursing. (that one makes me more sad than it should…I didn’t realize I wasn’t making milk any more, but suspected something was going on when I didn’t have engorgement during the vacation)

I am somewhat familiar with PCOS from my years on Infertility boards.  Everybody there seemed to have either Endometriosis or PCOS…looks like I might have had both and not realized it.  hmmm. 

Something is going on with me.  I hope I find answers.  Why does time pass so slowly when you are waiting for test results?

On a rather ironic note, my best friend was dx’ed with PCOS and anaovulatory years ago, and was diagnosed with Endo more recently. I have had Endo since I was 12 or 13, and might be getting a PCOS dx now.